You will always love me forever,you said it last year

You will smile if you see me happy,you said it last year

You adore me and can wait me forever,you said it last year

You already know that i'm your love before you see this world,you said it last year

You will protect and save me. you didn't want bad things happened to me,you said it last year

You can kill yourself if our relationship breakdown cause you can't live without me,you said it last year.

You won't see my face and ignore me and won't talk to me and talk bad things about me behind my back cause you hate me so much,you said it yesterday.

I just don't understand why you wont talk to me,even look at me. it hurts to know that i'm so unwanted

But it never really mattered,i will always feel the same

Why?

-Camelia

some photos & some stories

raga,saski,rigo,fiska,gue,virda (kok lala-nya gaada -_-)

last thursday, september 17th 2009,(our first day of holiday too!) is my best best friend forever: LALA's BIRTHDAAAY :DD!! let's sing a song: happy L day,Lala happy L day,Lala!

party-nya sih cuma di rumahnya aja kita maen2 gajelas trus makan2 trus si lala mukulin pinata-nya lalu photo session yg hueboh etc etc terus gue br balik jam 10 dianterin sm hadi and his innova lalu kejebak macet arus mudik ew -_- akhirnya smpe rumah br jam 11.

fiska,lala,virda,gue,afi (fia's sist),fia,ava,tata,saskia

ini foto pas buka puasa bersama wktu itu @ sushi tei pim,ceritanya dah gue ceritain di post bawah2 hehe,muka gue ga keliatan jd putih bgt begitu

light buzz

by fiska's slr. tadinya cuma buat iseng2 doang si fiska nge-goyangin kamera-nya pas lg diteken shutter-nya (apa deh tuh nama efeknya,sorry gue bukan anak fotografi),pas dia liat dia lsg heboh girang sendiri. katanya keren jadinya,dan hebatnya foto2 lainnya gak sebagus ini katanya. emg deh modelnya canggih sih

udah ah segitu aja,btw happy lebaran & idul fitri everyone,minal aidin wal faidzin okaay. and happy holiday too & happy mudik & happy pulang kampung etc etc

dan gue belom beli baju lebaran,tp gpp lah,ga penting pake baju baru yang penting hati-nya baru (quote bye hadi) haha okey dokey bye bye everyone,i'm going on holiday noow!

ho-ho-ho-leh-deheey,

Camelia ;))

B R O K E N H E A R T E D

okay so it's about juber special extreme 999 that my friends and i played on this 'special' day. we must do things that we afraid of and make us ashamed so much. we played on second break and the first turn is mine!


so i must told what i feel to my ex-boyfriend,Mahesa. AND I WAS SO NERVOUS! that i scream and did unusual things haha.. then my friends asked him to go out of his class BUT HE DIDN'T WANT TO! o m g i feel like i want to jump out of the window or banging my head toward my locker okay it's too drama



then i went to his class,and stood in front of him and said: "ca,gue lg maen juber dan gue disuruh nembak lo" AND IT'S JUST A STUPID REASON the truth is it's not because the dare game,but i honestly told about my true feeling to him!!!


then i said: "gue masih sayang sama lo,lo mau ga balikan ma gue?" once more time,IT'S A TRUTH! it's true that i really really love him and wanna get back together like it was.



then i felt like my world is spinning around and covered by black ink that spilled out,i felt like the sky is explode and the doomsday has come. but no,it just a three words that made me cried A LOT like a crazy woman that lost her baby! he said: "SORRY,SAYANGNYA NGGAK"



okay today isn't bad but SO MUCH BAD! i was rejected by my loved one but still i won't give up and i will never.



enough for the cry session,dan beralih ke bahasa indo,fajar temen gue yg terlalu kreatip membuat sesuatu yang bikin shock gue. katanya itu namanya robot alpha dari power ranger,lihat ini:


alpha: aiyaya!

kewl huh? c u asap! dan gue masih sayang beneran sama lo ma he sa,mau ga balikan ma gue?!

broken-hearted & never give up,
Camelia :'((


p.s: coba orangnya baca blog gue,so he will knows what i feel

about Brendon Boyd Urie

Brendon Urie itu penyanyi Panic!At The Disco yang gue sukaaaaaaaaa banget (and if i say it,then i mean it)!! Nah,gue tuh bukan sekedar suka-sukaan-sama-tampangnya-si-cowok-lucu,tapi gue sebagai mrs.Urie, know almost everythings about him ;)

Full Name: Brendon Boyd Urie
Nickname: Brendon,Brent,Bden,Brennybear
DOB: 12 April 1987 in Summerlin,Nevada,Las Vegas.
Height: 174 cm
Job: Lead singer of P!ATD and was worked to smoothie hut to pay his rent!
Religion: Mormon but no longer believes in it
The youngest child in his family
High School: Palo Verde High School
Favourite song: In your eyes-Peter Gabriel
Favourite drinks: Red Bull & Capri-sun
He was studied to be: A lawyer
He was ever had: Braces and Glasses (yes,he was a nerd!)
Instruments that he can play: SIX: Piano,Cello,Guitar,Bass,Drums and Accordian
His idol: Freddie Mercury
He always wear two bracelet: one that's purple and reads "Reading is Magic", and other one that is white,blue,green and red stripes.
Ranked #6 for Musics Sexiest Single Men by AOL Music in 2007
Eye color: Dark Brown
Favourite game: Guitar Hero
His mother name: Grace
His sister name: Kara
If he was a serial killer,he would chainsaw people
He would be Elmer Fudd if he was a cartoon
He likes to walk naked in his house
He likes to make a weird face in picture
He is a very messy eater
He has a tattoo of piano keys on his forearm
He's a vegetarian

There he is:

Oh god,I LOVE YOU LIA!! -,-

hhahaha,pokoknya I ♥ BRENDON URIE soooo much sejak kelas 2 smp loooh!
bzt,yaudeh gitu aja,daaaaaaaah



Mrs.Brendon Boyd Urie,
Camelia Urie ;))))

sailor moon addict

olaaaa!

akhir-nya bisa ngepost and ganti-ganti layout sedikit pake laptop ade gue!

kabar terbaru: secara tiba-tiba gue jadi ngefans lagi sama my childhood superhero,SAILOR MOON!

gatau kenapa bisa begitu.. tapi yasudahlah,yang penting sailor moon itu role model gue!

kenapa gue menjadikan dia seorang role model? padahal rambut-nya yang poni-keriting-dibelah-tengah-dan-dicat-pirang-style itu out of date baaangeeet! sekarang tuh jamannya belah-tengah-style-nya pevita tauuu,betul para anak gahol? ;p

okay back to topic,pertama ingat pepatah DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY THE COVER! (bener ga sih english-nya?) karna kalo dilihat dari penampilan,rambutnya langsung jadi nilai minus,heeem choker merah berbandul bulan emas juga kayaknya udah no-banget deeeeh! seragam jepang-nya siih lucu-lucu aja,tapi sepatu boot high heels warna merah selutut? too much,my dear moonie!

TAPI,dibalik penampilan-nya yang too much itu,tersimpan jiwa seorang pahlawan wanita yang tulus hatinya..

bukan itu saja,walaupun di kehidupan sehari-harinya,Usagi (nama asli sailor moon) adalah cewek teledor dan agak lemot juga nggak bisa diem,tapi ia sangat setia kawan dengan teman-teman sailor-nya dan sayang dengan keluarganya !!

sungguh hebat !!!

dan yang paling penting adalah,ia bisa membuat tuxedo bertopeng jatuh cinta mati terhadap-nya,tuxedo bertopeng yang ganteng (walau potongan rambut-nya agak ketinggalan jaman) dan selalu membawa mawar merah ini akan selalu menolongnya disaat ia terdesak!

itulah kira-kira alasan gue memilih usagi/sailormoon jadi role model gue,dan gue pun akan membela kebenaran dengan kekuatan bulan! karna itu gue pun berubah menjadi sailor bulan (sailor moon versi indonesia)

inilah sailor moon dan sailor bulan,silahkan dibandingkan:

dengan kekuatan bulan,aku akan mengadakan perhitungan! metaaaal!

sama-sama cantik ya? heeem,kurang tuxedo bertopengnya aja wahaha.. ntar gue bikin ah yang versi gue :p

udah ah,segitu dulu ajaaaa.. pengen cari layout yang bagus niiiih! salam sailor moon (peace --v)

sailor bulan,

Camelia

p.s: moon prism makeup! :berubah:

Not good,not too bad. Just bad ;(

First day on the second semester, tadinya dikira bakal bikin seneng gitu secara ketemu orang yang sudah dinanti-nanti,yang akhir-akhir ini mewarnai mimpi-mimpiku (lebay emang),tapi ternyata oh ternyataaa ngga seperti yang dibayangkan -___________-
karena:

pertama,gue ga ketemu echa pas pagi-pagi karna dengan bodohnya gue malah ngeloyor ke lobby bukannya ke echa yang nungguin gue dikantin,jadi gue ketemunya pas pulang doaaanggg yang jelas-jelas waktunya mepetpetpet. HUH,gedung sekolah sebelahan tapi susah ktemu z

kedua,dengan tololnya lagi gue malah sms echa yang lagi disetrap,dan dengan sangat kebetulan hp-nya echa lupa disilent,dan berakhir dengan hp dia disita sama student affair smp,udah gitu yg ngambil mesti nyokapnnya lagi. Ah,tambah ngerasa bersalah,maafin aku ya chaaa :'(

ketiga,GUE MESTI PISAH MA TEMEN2 GUE YG UDAH NYAMBUNG BANGET MA GUE dan masuk ke kelas X4 yang gaada mreka sama sekali plus gue sendirian (hanya rigo yang menemaniku hiks)

keempat,gue GATAU MESTI NGAPAIN di kelas x4 karna gue ga gitu deket sama anak-anaknya (kecuali rigo) udah gitu yang ada gue jadi males belajar karna gaada tmen bergosip-ria,huaahhh betein banget dh ahhhh

kelima,kepala gue pusing banget + perut gue sakiiit banget dehh,aduuh ditambah pelajaran math 3 jam, nambah aja penderitaan gue.

tetapi ga smuanya menderita gitu kok,soalnya pas pulang gue bisa ngobrol (walau cm sbentar dengan obrolan yang ga penting pula) dan gue seneeeeeng banget!!! Aduuh jadi makin cintrong,lanjut,yah intinya bete gue berkurang deh karna si item jd semangat lagiii!

yaudindin gue pamit dulu,see you on the next entry sambil minum chamomile tea ;D


i want my old class !!!

Camelia ;(

P.S: makasih kalungnya ya chaa ;D