You will always love me forever,you said it last year

You will smile if you see me happy,you said it last year

You adore me and can wait me forever,you said it last year

You already know that i'm your love before you see this world,you said it last year

You will protect and save me. you didn't want bad things happened to me,you said it last year

You can kill yourself if our relationship breakdown cause you can't live without me,you said it last year.

You won't see my face and ignore me and won't talk to me and talk bad things about me behind my back cause you hate me so much,you said it yesterday.

I just don't understand why you wont talk to me,even look at me. it hurts to know that i'm so unwanted

But it never really mattered,i will always feel the same

Why?

-Camelia

some photos & some stories

raga,saski,rigo,fiska,gue,virda (kok lala-nya gaada -_-)

last thursday, september 17th 2009,(our first day of holiday too!) is my best best friend forever: LALA's BIRTHDAAAY :DD!! let's sing a song: happy L day,Lala happy L day,Lala!

party-nya sih cuma di rumahnya aja kita maen2 gajelas trus makan2 trus si lala mukulin pinata-nya lalu photo session yg hueboh etc etc terus gue br balik jam 10 dianterin sm hadi and his innova lalu kejebak macet arus mudik ew -_- akhirnya smpe rumah br jam 11.

fiska,lala,virda,gue,afi (fia's sist),fia,ava,tata,saskia

ini foto pas buka puasa bersama wktu itu @ sushi tei pim,ceritanya dah gue ceritain di post bawah2 hehe,muka gue ga keliatan jd putih bgt begitu

light buzz

by fiska's slr. tadinya cuma buat iseng2 doang si fiska nge-goyangin kamera-nya pas lg diteken shutter-nya (apa deh tuh nama efeknya,sorry gue bukan anak fotografi),pas dia liat dia lsg heboh girang sendiri. katanya keren jadinya,dan hebatnya foto2 lainnya gak sebagus ini katanya. emg deh modelnya canggih sih

udah ah segitu aja,btw happy lebaran & idul fitri everyone,minal aidin wal faidzin okaay. and happy holiday too & happy mudik & happy pulang kampung etc etc

dan gue belom beli baju lebaran,tp gpp lah,ga penting pake baju baru yang penting hati-nya baru (quote bye hadi) haha okey dokey bye bye everyone,i'm going on holiday noow!

ho-ho-ho-leh-deheey,

Camelia ;))

B R O K E N H E A R T E D

okay so it's about juber special extreme 999 that my friends and i played on this 'special' day. we must do things that we afraid of and make us ashamed so much. we played on second break and the first turn is mine!


so i must told what i feel to my ex-boyfriend,Mahesa. AND I WAS SO NERVOUS! that i scream and did unusual things haha.. then my friends asked him to go out of his class BUT HE DIDN'T WANT TO! o m g i feel like i want to jump out of the window or banging my head toward my locker okay it's too drama



then i went to his class,and stood in front of him and said: "ca,gue lg maen juber dan gue disuruh nembak lo" AND IT'S JUST A STUPID REASON the truth is it's not because the dare game,but i honestly told about my true feeling to him!!!


then i said: "gue masih sayang sama lo,lo mau ga balikan ma gue?" once more time,IT'S A TRUTH! it's true that i really really love him and wanna get back together like it was.



then i felt like my world is spinning around and covered by black ink that spilled out,i felt like the sky is explode and the doomsday has come. but no,it just a three words that made me cried A LOT like a crazy woman that lost her baby! he said: "SORRY,SAYANGNYA NGGAK"



okay today isn't bad but SO MUCH BAD! i was rejected by my loved one but still i won't give up and i will never.



enough for the cry session,dan beralih ke bahasa indo,fajar temen gue yg terlalu kreatip membuat sesuatu yang bikin shock gue. katanya itu namanya robot alpha dari power ranger,lihat ini:


alpha: aiyaya!

kewl huh? c u asap! dan gue masih sayang beneran sama lo ma he sa,mau ga balikan ma gue?!

broken-hearted & never give up,
Camelia :'((


p.s: coba orangnya baca blog gue,so he will knows what i feel

TRUTH or DARE?

hey all, write agaaain
akhir2 ini gue udah mulai puasa lagi,dan ternyata gue baru sadar kalo LAPAR = EMOSIan,gila gue jd bad mood abis abisan kalo di sekolah maybe gara2 global people as sucks as the school kali yeaa
but however,gue punya temen-temen yang asik punya dan bisa bikin mood gue swiiing naek lagi!
every second break,we always play TRUTH or DARE!! atau juber atau jutang atau julang (jujur belalang said lala the alien).
tapi rule-nya beda,kita mesti 2 kali dare dulu baru boleh pilih truth or dare. jadi dare dare truth begitulah ahaaha

dan gue emg paling seneng maen dare,soalnya truth GA SERU! dan akhirnya gue pun nyanyi lagu papparazzi by gaga di koridor lt 4 sambil joget2 asoooy
tapi jujur deh yg plg bikin nervous itu,disuruh ngambil buku adek kelas. HAH KENAPA NERVOUS? kan cuma GITU DOANG! soalnyaaaaaaaaaa,adek kelasnya itu lg duduk disamping ACENG! eww eww
jd gue pun sok berani melenggang depan aceng my love -_- yang katanya fiska lala saski ngeliatin gue jalan trus langsung nundukin kepalanya (wtf?! emg gue kuntilanak apa?!). dan balik2 gue lsg lemes ahaha cacat yeayea

dan DARE-nya biasanya gila-gila dan mesti mempermalukan abis didepan gebs masing2 ahaha,tapi kalo ava fia biasanya memerlukan waktu 15 menit dulu sbelum menyetujui dan melakukan dare-nya ahaha
dan kayaknya selama fasting month ini kita bakal terus maen pas second break ahaha secara yea global nyiksa abis jadi gaada waktu buat have fun dikit eww

OH IYAAA kemaren XIsc-3 bukber di HOKBEN BESQI ahuahauahua,yang dateng ada 20 orang dan itu seru abis soalnya pada rusuh dan akhirnya diusir sama mas-mas hokbennya ew
terus terus abis itu kita lanjut nonton di giant hahaha ber-18 orang wohoo dan gue ke giant bareng mobil dika dan dia nyerempet motor geblek daaah
eh ternyata kita keabisan the proposal dan malah nonton KERAMAT film teraneh (setelah LEAK,ada yg inget?) yg pernah gue tonton dan katanya saski ga bs tidur wth?! filmnya kaga ada serem2nya gitu deh
terus pulangnya giant udah gelap dan gue ditakut2in ew
dan gue dianterin pulang sama hadoy,thanks to him udh mo nganterin ke rumah gue yang jauh itu -_-

sampe rumah ga bisa tidur kepikiran si aceng sayang,katanya pacar ade gue dia lg sakit hiks gue jg jadi sakit nih (wowowo sok sok solmet gimana gt) anyway,rabu kemaren ada gempa yeayea dan itu terjadi pas banget abis si fiska "melakukan aksi"-nya yg sampe sekarang msh bikin hati gue gempa 7,3 skala ritcher (ew bgt deh gue),haha gara2 kertas doang! -_- udah ah byebye yea c u soon :))


you call me a stranger you say i'm a danger,
Camelia :))

buka bersama girls only + 1 boy -_-

hey hey! writing agaaaiin :)
pengen cerita nih,tadi eke kan ke PIM yea with my besties: Fiska,Lala,Ava,Saski,Fia,Tata,Virda and saskia's bestie: Awang (haha it's like my ex-step father's name -,-) kita rencana mau buka puasa bersama gitu dey + nonton buat ngabuburit

but tidak dinyana dan tidak disangka,ternyata gaada film yang jam 5 (because of fasting) dan akhirnya kita nggak jadi ngabuburit nonton dan jalan2 saja. terus terus,sebelum bukpus kita sempet terpencar-pencar gitu deh. Fia,lala,ava,virda ke sushi tei buat taken tempat buka puasa soalnya kalo nggak gitu ga bakal dapet tempat buka,secara ya pim saat malming gitu huahh
tata with her boyf entah kemana dan gue,fiska,saski,awang beli tiket orphan di 21 baru ke sushi tei.

akhirnya kita dapet tiket orphan yang jam 7 di barisan KEDUA DARI DEPAN! wow hebat!
lalu sekitar jam 5an menyusul ke sushi tei.
disana kita ngabuburit dengan bermain JUBER alias TRUTHorDARE. dan gue kedapetan suruh duduk di tengah2 lantai sushi tei & NGEGODAIN MAS MAS SUSHI TEI dengan bilang gini:
"mas mas pengen tanya deh,SAYA CANTIK GA?" okay ckp memalukan.
lalu lala kedapetan nyanyi smbl jalan2 disana dengan gaya beler-nya dia. dan gue sempet kenalan dengan mas mas sushi tei lagi! uhh mempermalukan diri sendiri -_-

dan yang bikin heboh entah gimana,kemungkinan sih gara2 lala di makeover jadi dandan & PAKE DRESS (lala pake dress?!!!),LALA MEMECAHKAN GELAS DISANA dgn hebohnyaaa! dan yg ngeberesin adalah mas mas yg gue minta kenalan td ahaha

after that,we went to gramed,dan gue menadapati duit gue ga cukup buat beli buku Dewi Lestari or Dee yang baru: Perahu Kertas. AH PENGEN BELI!
terus kita pisah deh. Ava,fia,lala,virda,tata pulaaaang & gue,fiska,saski,awang nontooon.
and ORPHAN sangat sangat menegangkan,ga serem ga sadis tapi menegangkan bgt bikin kaget kaget gitu.

lalu lalu,jam 10 pulaaang deh,gue bareng bonyok,fiska nebeng saski & awang bawa mobil sendiri. dan selama perjalanan itu gue dkk ga bisa berenti ketawa gajelas -_-
and i didn't met any interesting boy huhuaa
pengen punya pacar nih,rekor gue jomblo sebulan setelah dulu2 pacaran muluuu ;(

i hate to know that the person who always appeared in my dream EVERY night is him, cause i have to get over him and say goodbye. huaaah why can't he just forgive me and unblock my msn & facebook? urgh,i dont wanna have an enemy :(( especially him


cant deny that iam really from outerspace,
Cameliaaaa!



p.s: cariin cowok dongs huhu